Archive for August, 2008

I returned to work today …

Monday, August 18th, 2008

Lewis’s poignant poem describes that night all to clearly. My heart aches, my brain can’t comprehend, my thoughts never drift far from Andrei. Although we don’t share the same blood line, Andrei and Stefan are my brothers just the same. We’ve been in the same family since they were children. We share blood, heart, soul - and now tears. 

My co-workers (many of whom I consider friends) were kind enough to offer their sympathy. With our family so spread out, this web site is an opportunity to share their cards with everyone.  In addition, they took up a collection which will go to the “Luckie Fund”.  Thanks so much to everyone who contributed.

Mark Clintsman

Gone tomorrow, Here today

Monday, August 18th, 2008

A great tree has fallen, made the earth shake
I felt it tremble and now I lie awake
Woken up before the dawn, it’s my mother on the phone
Made me feel like someting bad was going on
So I took the call, flung me through the room onto the wall
Sucked my breath and took my words know not what to say at all
What can I say what could I say, for all I know are old clichés
Nothing seemed to fit this morning’s choking haze
Gone tomorrow, here today

But as I lay back down, the sheets have turned cold and black
My mind starts a-thundring and roaring I can’t hold it back
These tears that are coming, this hope that’s a-flowing
These hairs that are lifting this heart that’s a-groaning
These thoughts that are drifting, these hands that are gripping
It all makes no sense it all makes no sense I say
Gone tomorrow, here today

Sleep finally caught up with me in the end, providing a dream and a message sent
A way to cope, a way to deal
To stand strong when reality hits and it’s real
But also a way to connect, to prolong that bundle of light
That laugh of a thousand smiles, that heart of a lion’s sweet mercy
That mind strong as a trap, that lovely caring man who is my uncle
That mountain of a man, swept away as we stand proud
In your memory my friend, I’ll see you on the way
Gone tomorrow, here today

Lewis Maxwell van Splunteren

Thank you Andrei for your gifts and dedication

Monday, August 18th, 2008

The Center for Creative Learning had only a few months to work with Andrei, and it wasn’t long enough! His wisdom, encouragement and great ideas were so helpful for us. On behalf of the owner team at CCL and the thousands of Taking It Lightly graduates, we send our love and “purple energy” (heart energy) to all who grieve the loss of his love and presence and to him on the next phase of his soul journey.  We are grateful we walked the path together. Though it was a short time, he made a difference for us.

Patricia Clason, owner, Center for Creative Learning, Stratworx client

In honor of my friend, Andrei

Saturday, August 16th, 2008

Thank You All… for sharing your Andrei — to some, your son, brother, lover and to all, your friend with the world. And that, of course, included me.

For those who don’t know me, I am a client of Stratworx. And, in that capacity, I found a great teacher and friend in Andrei.

Andrei connected with me in a most magical and wonderful way… but I suspect he had that same effect on most everyone he came into contact with while he was here.

His gift, among many, was to make people feel special. He did that for me. It was Andrei’s ‘gift’ that I shall always treasure and honor him for in the life I have left to live.

When I think of Andrei, I am reminded of so many bright lights… stars, actually… that shine so intensely and brilliantly and yet, it seems, never long enough.

I can’t say why, but my brief connection with Andrei seems timeless. It was as if we’d known each other for a long, long time but had only recently met. It was an irony. But I never doubted our connection.

I loved hearing him talk about his family whom he expressed his regard for in the stories about his father and the way he wanted to be sure good things happened for his family. I remember we both shared a great laugh over the fact that he was ‘living, breathing proof’ that peace is possible… even if for a short-time. And that possibility opens the door… to the hearts of people of all nations… to even longer and bigger ones.

At one point, we were sharing weekly calls. Ostensibly about ‘business’. But Andrei and I would always seem to get our conversation steered onto more profound issues like why people do what they do, and what are the interests behind their positions as well as all manner of ‘human’ interests that only a gifted, talented and compassionate mind could engage with as intellectually as Andrei loved to do.

His critical thinking skills were huge. I remembered thinking to myself, “This guy’s got some great stuff… no, really great stuff!”. And, of course, he did. But he also had some incredible common sense and insight into how and why people do what they do. I loved his mind and I respected his humanity.

At one point I said, “Andrei… I get the feeling that you’re starved for some good conversation the way a hungry person is starved for some good food”. We both laughed. Andrei acknowledged that he was “always hungry for good conversation as long as the conversation is good”. Of course, I never lacked for that when I had Andrei all to myself on a phonecall… he was wonderful and a friend and I miss him terribly.

To those of you who survive Andrei, be proud. You have each helped bring into this world a most special individual who used the talents he was given and that he himself developed for good things and to make the world a better place in any way and at every opportunity he could find.

He will be very much missed, of course. And I now carry a little ’star’ in my heart that feels like Andrei is there. He’s still guiding me. Still asking excellent questions of me. And most of all, he’s there reminding me to “Carry on, Bill… go forth and do good”. I treasure my ‘treasure’ of Andrei and I thank you for helping me to have the all too brief and exceedingly wonderful chance to know him as I did and call him my friend as I will always.

My thoughts and wishes are with you and I hope the understandable sadness you feel now will leave you when you’re ready to let it go and I hope the memories of all the good and precious moments with Andrei will remain with each of you forever.

I don’t know you personally, but I know Andrei and, by association, I know this… you must all be very wonderful and special people… Peace.

Bill

I love you Andrei

Friday, August 15th, 2008

This morning, the rain came down hard - it was all the tears in my heart for my son Andrei.  The thunder rolled like all the noise and the questions in my head and my being

The sun came out a little later - bright as my joy and gratitude for having had Andrei in my life, brilliant as his mind and his smile

The sky cleared up - infinite as Andrei’s consciousness and energy and generosity - expansive as his heart

I was to have gone to Santa Rosa this past weekend to drive Andrei down so that he could be around his family.  Instead, I drove down with his ashes.

Andrei would have been 37 today

I love you my dear, sweet one

Marcelle

Happy Birthday…..

Friday, August 15th, 2008

Happy Birthday Andrei….not your body but your spirit turns 37 today.

Whereever you are in the universe, my heart is with you today and always.

~Melissa

Luckie Peanut Podell

Thursday, August 14th, 2008
To echo Stefan’s opening line: My love died last week. And no, it hasn’t really sunk in yet.
 
I, too, do not yet feel ready to expand upon my feelings for Andrei and what he has meant to me and my life. And there are truly no words to express the tragic loss that I feel today.
 
But…..what I can expand upon right now is his dog, Luckie. And since there are already several mentions on this blog about donations to “The Luckie Fund”, it seems appropriate to give people the background story to what they are donating their money towards.
“Luckie Peanut Podell”
 
In the spring of 2005, Andrei and I were living in the Bay Villages apartments in Santa Rosa. I have always been a dog person, as was Andrei, and I think we were both terribly missing having a canine heart in the household. We talked about getting a dog, but we lived in a small apartment with no yard and it seemed next to impossible to bring a dog into our home.
 
At least, it would have been impossible to bring the kind of dog that Andrei envisioned….he had a huge place in his heart for golden retrievers after losing his beloved shaggy dog Kola, who helped him recover from back surgery, when we first were dating in 2003.
 
I had a different vision of what kind of dog we could get. I thought of getting a small dog that we could have in an apartment, one that we could take with us when we travelled. A….chihuahua! I decided we should get a chihuahua, and although Andrei and I didn’t agree on this point at first, after much discussion (and begging and pleading and justification on my part, I’ll admit), we got our little chihuahua puppy, and we named her Luckie.
Andrei holds Luckie in his hands

Andrei holds Luckie in his hands

Andrei and Luckie, her first day home

Andrei and Luckie, her first day home

Luckie, already knowing she's safe with Andrei

Luckie, already knowing she's safe with Andrei

From the day we brought Luckie home, she and Andrei were bonded for life. He would lay on the couch and she would cuddle up in the crook of his neck and lay there for hours. And once in a while, she would jump up and start feverishly licking his face, which always made him smile and laugh.
The usual TV-watching position

The usual TV-watching position

They loved sitting together....

They loved sitting together....

The licking attack underway

The licking attack underway

I always felt a little jealous, since I was the one who wanted this little chihuahua puppy in the first place, and Daddy is the one she always wanted to hang out with.
 
We had a lot of fun adventures with Luckie, and took her with us everywhere we went; she’s been on an airplane more times than a lot of people I know.
Andrei and Luckie at Oakland Airport

Andrei and Luckie at Oakland Airport

And she always captured everyone’s hearts everywhere she went. But, I can honestly say that no one loves her as much as Andrei did.
 
As Luckie grew up and reached her adult size of 2.8 pounds and less than a foot tall (no, that is not a typo) we knew that her legs were thin and fragile, not unlike the rest of her, and we were careful to look out for her and not let her become injured. But during a routine jump down from the sofa last fall, Luckie injured her hind leg and the vet at the emergency animal hospital confirmed that Luckie has “luxating patellas”–her knee caps on both of her hind legs slide on and off the joint which leaves her legs unstable and prone to injury. He suggested surgery to correct the problem, not urgently but within a year or sooner if she re-injured her leg.
In the months since that vet visit, her legs have continued to deteriorate to where she noticably limps and has weakness in her hind legs when she, say, stands up for you to lift her onto the bed or begs for a treat. Pending a re-evaluation of her condition by the orthopedic surgeon at the animal hospital on August 21st, I believe the time has come for Luckie to have her little slipping kneecaps fixed up so she can live a healthy, happy life and bring to other people the love and pure joy that she brought to Andrei.
 
I will use this blog to keep people apprised of our progress towards gathering the funds necessary to treat Luckie’s condition, an amount which could reach several thousand dollars, and also of Luckie’s progress when she does have the surgery.
Another good photo of those two...

Another good photo of those two...

Luckie today

Luckie today

 

It seems like coming together to assure the well-being of the tiny dog that laid with him as he passed from our world to the next is only the beginning of the tribute that Andrei deserves. So thank you in advance, from all of us, if you would like to contribute anything at all.
 
Love,
Melissa

Andrei’s Powerful Voice

Thursday, August 14th, 2008

As Andrei’s brother Stefan said in his post yesterday, the time to share our thoughts and remembrances of Andrei is just beginning. Although the crushing reality is still sinking in, it’s important we have the opportunity to share our thoughts and insights about Andrei with each other.

I had the pleasure to meet Andrei more than five years ago in our business relationship at E-Myth Worldwide. Throughout the years we became close personal friends and shared many common interests, not the least of which was big picture, strategic thinking and dreaming. Andrei was a passionate man whose imagination was broad.

He challenged me in many ways and was skilled at bringing a strategic conversation down to Earth with practical…to do’s. I can still hear his powerful voice encouraging me to drill down into the specifics. What a blessing Andrei was in my life.

We were preparing to launch a major initiative this Fall featuring Andrei and his business wisdom and consulting. I thought I would share the recent photo he sent me for our website and collateral material. Every time I see this picture, it makes me smile…and choke up at the same time.

Andrei

Andrei

I would also encourage you, if you are so led, to share a donation with Luckie. I had the pleasure of staying in Andrei’s home and Luckie was a part of the family. As a matter of fact, Luckie was always kind enough to curl up with me and keep me company. Even when we were on the phone, Luckie would occasionally participate and share her insights. Andrei loved her very much and anything you can do would be meaningful.

Please share your thoughts over the days and weeks ahead.

Steve Olds

Please Join In

Thursday, August 14th, 2008

If you would like to write something for this “virtual memorial,” please register for an account here and send me a message.  I’ll set your account to be an “Author” account, and you’ll be able to post your own entries here.

Andrei Podell

Tuesday, August 12th, 2008

My brother, Andrei, died last week. It hasn’t really sunk in yet.

It’s just too early to say anything profound or awesomely meaningful. So I’m just posting this to get the ball rolling. I’ve heard from many of his friends that they want to be able to do something to remember him, or possibly contribute in some way. This site will become that - just not today.